Dear Lili,
Someone has been a REAL fuss bot the last few days. In all fairness you have had a bit of a cold and for a newborn with no shots yet that has got to be a little rough not being able to breath through your little nostrils.
But still. Take you off the boob – WAHHH. Put you on the boob – WAHHH. Take you in the stroller – WAHHH. Rock you – WAHHH. Burp you – WAHHH. Change you – WAHHH. Sing to you – WAHHH. Nothing really working. People tell me sometimes babies just cry and I’m trying to wrap my head around being ok with that but I must confess it is still hard. As the mother-in-law said – time to put on the ipod. Haven’t reached that comfort level yet but there is still hope.
The good news is during the day you and I have had several visitors, which can sometimes be stressful because I am anal about trying to keep the house clean. But often is a good distraction. I am still at the stage where I get very stressed out when you are wailing up a storm of tears when visitors are here and I am hosting alone. It’s hard because I often have to leave the visitor sitting in the living room alone to entertain themselves while I try and put you down or try and calm you and it’s hard to engage in a proper conversation when you can barely hear the other person over a newborn’s screams. But duh. I know. People understand.
So many people have brought us amazing amounts of FOOD which when you are trapped at home most the day with only one hand free helps so much! We’ve been given baked ziti and lasagna and meatballs and meatloaf and goat cheese and beet sandwiches and cookies and more cookies and fresh fruit and salads and soups and the list goes on. So grateful for all the thoughtful gifts.
You were good today. Before your Dad left for work he would yell your name and throw his hands in the air and you would crack a huge smile. You did it five times in a row. When he left for work I attempted the same game – with no luck. You took one look at me with a cold hard stare as if to say – oh…you again.
xo
